Thursday, October 25, 2012

Dancing(and speaking) in the Wings

My very first speech meet is this Saturday and I'm kind of freaking out. I really don't want to do it but I do. I only don't want to do it because I'm nervous. It will be so much fun and I probably won't even do too bad. I just don't want to fail. I don't have all 5 1/2 pages memorized but this is my first time, I'm kind of expected not to. I have to do it. After I do it and do really well I'll feel so much better. My friends that are upper grades told me about how some people do puke and you can smell it ALLLLL down the hall. Let's hope that's not me. I'll just stay calm and not freak out like my brother's girlfriend's sister is just in the room below me. I will have to go to musical practice in a bit and depending on how that goes I might write you guys again. Any other advice on how to stay calm and what do to?

On another note I found out that I have celiac disease and my friend has a really bad infection in his leg and might not be able to do the school musical that we're both part of. This all makes me sad. On a happier thought tomorrow I get to go shopping with my mom for new glasses, new pointe shoes, and possibly contacts and clothes. Can you say whole new look? :)

Stay in touch with yourself but be rational with it, Yoursforever <3

Tuesday, October 23, 2012

All is well

One last thing before I go to bed. Aceman. He pretty much made my day. He irritated me and made me mad like 5 months ago but after a while I cooled down and learned to love him... real fast. He's like so incredibly awesome. I never knew his name or what he looked like until I decided to give him a shot at being less whiny. ;) As we talked more and more him and I just got along better and better. He didn't care that I did silly little things like chew on pens or lost my phone 24/7 or drew on myself. He liked me for me. Aceman. You probably just saved my life for real.

Stay positive. Be yourself. Be forgiving. Stay alive.

Yoursforever- almost positively found a true best (non-friend zoned) friend

The Pocket... and Fears

Here lately I've been having some troubles with fears of mine.
I know, childish right?
There's this story about a monster called The Pocket and it scares me a lot.
 The picture of The Pocket in the story. Creep, eh?

Along with The Pocket I had a strange dream about these giant bugs from Starship Troopers. The huge ones that occur the most often? Yeah, those. They were here on Earth and we eventually got rid of them. I somehow had created one a few years later and only the owner's gun could kill it. Well it got loose and people tried to kill it. Right outside the back door of my house now I shot it. It wouldn't die. It'd eaten some people right where it stood so the police and ambulance were there. The policeman threw me his gun after all of mine had failed. I shot the bug, it died, and I woke up to be ever terrified about being in the dark outside my back door.

 Starship Trooper bug. It's worth being scared of.

Yes, I know. It's typical of people to be scared but of such things as bugs and monsters? I'm a lame person. Zombies. That's the next thing. I'm so scared of them. For some odd reason I believe they exist and they terrify me. I love the show The Walking Dead but they just spark more thoughts of them and I refuse to go outside. Alright. There. I said it. I'm afraid of a lot of things. One of these days I'll get over it but as for now...

     Stay strong brosephs. Love, Yoursforever.

Blogging for Beginners

Today was crazy. For some reason it ended up being sad but it started out by having to run to the bus or be late then when I got there everyone was crabby for some odd reason. Mondays are for being crabby, not Tuesdays. After that it just went down hill. Around 11:30 something weird happened. I realized I didn't want him. Him being this guy I'd been head over heels for since I was little. As I grew up I'd forgotten about him. Once into high school we had to spend every day together in some way or another. I spent more and more time with him and I found out he wasn't worth getting all caught up with. He just wanted me for my body. I just wanted him so I wouldn't be alone. Girls- Don't settle just so you're not alone. Be happy with your life. Things do get better. Boys- Don't treat girls like they're some item. They are people too. Don't just use them and not want anything else to do with them.

As for the ending of my day it's about 9pm now. I had this long conversation with the guy mentioned above and now he won't talk to me. Yes I'm ok with that but he was always there for me. I just don't like him like that. He only wanted my body. I'm left feeling empty and sad.

 But don't worry. Life gets better. Love, Yoursforever